二零零九年十月五日          星期一          清涼寂靜一個人的晚上

多謝恩師　你的那份鼓勵　即時的回應　和　陸九淵的話　雖不識一字　亦可堂堂正正做人　再一次讓我肯定此刻我所做的言教和　身教

多謝十兄弟　你們的每一句說話　都深深印在我心中　欣賞你們的理性和聰慧　更少不了那數不完的幽默　和說到底那骨子裡的正義感　縱然已完滿地離開了　但依然充滿暖意地關心地我　

多謝中四的賽貝們　縱有多大的困阻　赤子之心依然常存　這不是口號式的熱心而是經得起考驗的認真　不論是甚麼團體和組別　都是那麼　單純　都是那麼　了不起　時間　說長不長　說短不短　但　總是沒有回頭的日子　走吧　向前走吧

多謝中三的小寶貝　說幫忙就幫忙　沒有埋怨　沒有要求　縱使充滿那份對成長的盼望　但　依然願意接受一個又一個挑戰　

多謝中二的中朋友　論正義　有　論用功　有　論團結　有　大概　你們是上天送給我不用擔心的　大禮

說到底　我還是好孩子上身地　多謝這群自以為是的年輕人　讓我反過來　

明白　甚麼叫不明不白　甚麼叫傲慢難擋　沒禮貌　欠尊重　總是只會好孩子上身　這好不荒天下之大謬　我能做的就只有　走著朝　我心中想著一種　為人師表不應有的心思　但　人總要買失敗得教訓的　否則　他　仍只會好孩子上身　

Thanks for my undergraduate and post-graduate training, whenever I am depressed and sad, English would become my medium of expression. Yes! I am really depressed, sad and a little bit disappointed. Perhaps I have tried to get rid of the cycle created by those who think they are empowered but injuried.

Here may come to the question who are empowered but injuried? Who empower those who are empowered? Who injure those who are injuried? Before answering these questions, I just want to tell a story.

                             'There was a lady who was kind and helpful, charming and cheerful. When                    she was young, her mum told her she should create her own life. She should do                              whatever she think she should do. She was full of hope and plan. She waited and                    waited.

                             Time passed. She was not a girl any more but a lady educated to be patient,                    trained with leadership skills and enlightened with universal values. She faced all    the challenges with wisdom. She helped all the inferiors with her power.

                             She also wanted to be recognized and admitted. She went to the hall and tried                    to get up to the stage to announce her thoughts and arouse the public. Suddenly,                    there was a man rushed out and asked for her marriage in return of the chance to                    get onto the stage. The man thought that he was empowered. He could do whatever                    he like, including the changes of all the statements stated inside the draft of the                              certificate of marriage. Without any communication but full of trust, the lady                              thought that there should be no problem at all.

                             One day before the marriage, the lady stood on the stage and expressed her                    thoughts. She came down from the stage with joy and happiness.

                             The man rushed to her with his friends in hot temper and said, " I would grant                    you a warning since your announcement is illegal!"

                             With great anger and immeasurable tears, feeling of betrayal and totally                              defeated, the lady replied without any further hesitation, but the direct cancellation                    of the plan of the marriage which is full of nil wisdom and mutual respect.'

What a pity and poor little lady.

So, from the story, who are injuried? Who are totally loss?

Dear my beloved,

Again and again, life is full of challenges and idiosyncratic situations, expressions, even ideologies. Especially when there are somebody who have thought nobody in the world, nobody would be respected. So, Mrs Chan reminded me before, 'earn your own respect!' Yes! at least, we have done!

So, are we loved? Yes, we are as well as no, we aren't! We are loved because we are supported with those who prefer work rather than speech. No, we aren't loved since we are hurt by those who prefer power rather than pragmatic action.

How confused I am since I have no ability to control such confusion. What can we do is just to do our best!

Dear all beloved but hated especially the male-typed-creatures, at this moment, and subject to changes deal to your nature,

What are you doing now can't be proved to be true, but can be proved to be silly and naive.

Bleeding and tearing in such a raining and winding night...